I just don't know right now

On a nice and warm sunny day
All the attention I have to pay
Is to you

As I take one glance from afar
I come back around
Just for a second
To make one more glance to you

Ever since I set eyes on you
I've been dreaming of the days

Days that we are just ourselves
Days where we learn
Days where we dont both have a concern
Days where we can be in each others arms
Days where we can finally say, "I have found the one"

Those days are yet to come
So I just have to wait till the time comes

Til then I will still be glancing
At the one
I know who is suppose to be
For me
The one

Random

So many sleepless nights

Of just not going to bed on cue

Thoughts running and not stopping 

Just can't get a calm mind

I want the hours of zzz's i need

But this brain is just too stuck up

It's a huge draw back

The sleep that is

But i know eventually 

I'm gonna make a full pledged comeback

And become the best person I can be

It's all good because of one thing still stands

That is that I'm still very creative

April 9th

So many years gone by
Living this long tale lie
Living with who I was
Not who I truly am

My mind thinking one thing
My heart is thinking another
Which one is right
Common sense
Or the love I feel for someone else

The pain I feel every day I wake
Not seeing the person I live for each day
Why did I make this choice
To live on how society tells me to

Now it's too late
I've hurt too many people
I even hurt you

I want to start anew
With a fresh new slate
So I move away
To avoid all the hate
On my one decision on breaking free

Years later I'm still hurting
Feel the pain inside
Even when I'm happy with who I am
I still care for the people I hurt deep inside

I still feel alone
Because I am alone
I need someone who loves
To be the one I care for
Til the end of time

April 4th

Thoughts going through my head
At the speed of light
Just trying to stay ahead
with all that I consider all my might

To be focused is key
To be the guy to be
That everyone goes to
When they all are confused and blue

Not so easy to write these lines
Without the sings to tell
That you still need to find
A new frame of mind

To be creative is what sweeps
And being fluent is what keeps
So the reader is still engaged
At this point and time

If you didn't get this far
Then you just missed the bar
for achieving something great

But sorry it's too late
So til next time
i will try and rhyme
Better in time
So you will pay attention
To what I mention
In my work

Feburary 29th

Fog all around these clouded skies
Seems like it's just covered up lies
Shielding everyone from this one single truth
Just be yourself

With that on your mind
You will become un-blind
By all the fog and clouded skies

With no lies
There's only clear skies
It's truly just the sun shinning in the sky

Being who you are is amazing
Even though it's a journey of difficulty
With a million people blazing
Question after question

When is it all going to end
I just have to mention

I am who I am
Nothing is ever going to change

Either you are with me
or not

All i care for is myself
And those who support me
To just be myself

I just dont know

Wondering through the long distant halls
Hearing only ust that one lonely call
Telling me on what I should do
Should I listen, or just straight up ignore

The thought of what is to come
Is just making my whole body numb

How can it come down to this
The passion I used to have
Is it just something I plainly missed
Or Just completely sliced into half
Of what I miss
That came with the passion

I thought I loved what I set out to do
But the decision is not sticking like glue
Sadly it's slowly fading away
Just thinking if it's all worth this pain
To continue what I planned out for my life

The voice still waiting for a reply
I simply just go up
And let out a big cry
Wishing I had the drive
Of a young curious pup
To stay alive with passion
And continure my dream
To stay relaxed and break through the seams
To achieve my goal set dreams

Sometimes all is there
It's just that you need time
By yourself and reflect
Without this
You will be nothing

In Biology, just had to write

Foggy skies

With all these little white lies

Taking over the mind

Keeping it one step behind

Blurring ones judgment

Giving another heartache

It was what it meant

Sorry, just had to vent

Feeling the pain from those words

Wishing to fly away

Just as easy as the birds

Flying towards the coastal bay

Knowing that running away

Is not the way to go

It only shortly takes the pain

And masks it and turns sane

Owning up to what you’ve done

Is the right thing done

Even though it may not be all that fun

Knowing that someone hears your pain

And understanding what's it like outside in the rain

Is nice to know

That you always reap what you sow

So pick up your head

And just start

All over again

Just do the right part

And be ahead of men