April 9th

So many years gone by
Living this long tale lie
Living with who I was
Not who I truly am

My mind thinking one thing
My heart is thinking another
Which one is right
Common sense
Or the love I feel for someone else

The pain I feel every day I wake
Not seeing the person I live for each day
Why did I make this choice
To live on how society tells me to

Now it's too late
I've hurt too many people
I even hurt you

I want to start anew
With a fresh new slate
So I move away
To avoid all the hate
On my one decision on breaking free

Years later I'm still hurting
Feel the pain inside
Even when I'm happy with who I am
I still care for the people I hurt deep inside

I still feel alone
Because I am alone
I need someone who loves
To be the one I care for
Til the end of time

April 4th

Thoughts going through my head
At the speed of light
Just trying to stay ahead
with all that I consider all my might

To be focused is key
To be the guy to be
That everyone goes to
When they all are confused and blue

Not so easy to write these lines
Without the sings to tell
That you still need to find
A new frame of mind

To be creative is what sweeps
And being fluent is what keeps
So the reader is still engaged
At this point and time

If you didn't get this far
Then you just missed the bar
for achieving something great

But sorry it's too late
So til next time
i will try and rhyme
Better in time
So you will pay attention
To what I mention
In my work